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Monday, November 13th, 2006
12:03 am	Um... I know people don't write or read this much anymore... but what the hell... I'm bored... so why not!? Life is actually going really well for me right now. My job with Alternative Homemaking is going great! The girl that did the scheduling quit about a month or so ago... so I got kinda thrown into that position while Linda was on vacation. I ended up picking up on it really quickly... so I got the job! I will hopefully get my raise here soon. There is a lot to the job... but I like it a lot. It keeps me busy and keeps me on my toes. If it wasn't for Linda... I prolly wouldn't have stuck around as long as I have, but I guess things happen for a reason, and I guess it was meant to be. :o) I am just glad that I finally have a full time job, I don't have to drive to Port Charlotte anymore, and it's something like I like a lot. :o) It's nice. I'll hopefully be making 400 or so a week, and then when I have the on call/ emergency cell phone I get 20 bucks per day I have that... so that is cool too. :o) It's nice to be making a decent income. Well... let's see... what else...  Last night Ryan and I met up with Linda, her husband, another lady we work with, and her family at a place called Bogeys. It's kinda like a family sports bar kinda place. Well I was going to give her all the on call work stuff, but she ended up buying us beer, and then she bought us all dinner too! We all got pretty drunk. :o) It was really fun though. Never really gotten drunk with a boss before... but we had a good time! She's the coolest lady! Her birthday is in a little less than a month... and she wants her daugher, me, and Molly ( one of her friends, and also a caregiver for us) to go to some club where they have chip 'n dale dancers!!! Haha Her husband is the manager for some limo service that takes people to the airport and back... so we are going to get a limo and everything... it should be a good time! :o) For Thanksgiving... my dad, step mom, her mom, and my step brother are all coming down here to Venice to have dinner at Ryan's parents house. I hope it goes well. It'll be the first time that they all meet (well my dad met them awhile ago). I'm a little nervous, but I think it will be ok. I'm just glad I can be with family and people that I care about. :o) I won't be home for Christmas. I am going to try to go up to NY with Ryan and his parents for Christmas. My mom said it's too expensive to fly to Oregon 2 times a year. I guess I don't blame her because it cost almost 1,000 bucks for Ryan, the dog, and I to fly there over the summer. I REALLY miss Christmas with my family though. Maybe we can go to Oregon next year for Christmas. :o) Who knows... It'll be nice to spend Christmas with his family since I can't be with mine. I get to see snow too! YaY! Well... it's kinda late and I'm exhausted! Gotta get up early to go work... so I guess I will update when I have something exciting to write about! Hope everyone else is doing well! :o) Current Mood: exhausted... but good (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 30th, 2006
1:37 pm	*sigh* So I know people haven't really been updating in this thing for awhile now... but it's still kinda my way to vent I guess... Lately I have been thinking a lot about my life. How different would my life be if I had never moved to Florida? Would I still be really close to all the people I hung out with? Or would it be like it is now... rarely talking to anyone? I love it here in Florida. The weather... the beaches... and stuff like that makes me happy, but it seems like a lot of things went wrong here for me. Things at first were great... dating guys, meeting new friends, being close to my dad, having 2 good jobs... and now.... it seems like that all went down hill. My job situation was non exsistant for 7 months... then I got the job working for that vet. and he screwed me over, and now Alternative is screwing me over. I just don't know what to do anymore. Things with Ryan are ok... but it seems like we are more like REALLY good friends than "boyfriend and girlfriend." It's getting really depressing. It sucks because there is nothing I can really do about it now because we live in our own apartment and we signed a lease. I wish that just for ONCE my life would fall into place and everything would be great... and things would be NORMAL for once.  I almost wish I was back in high school. Had tons of friends... a decent job... didn't have very many worries... was in a few decent relationships...and hung out with my good friends all time. All the football games, basketball games, wrestling matches, track meets... dances... I dunno it seems like my life was a lot easier back in the day. I dunno... I am not really sure what makes me happy anymore. I don't know if I'd be happier living back in Oregon or not.  Sigh... I just wish things would fall into place for me. I wish I could find a good job that pays decent, I wish my relationship would get better, I just wish my life was a lot easier and not as stressfull.  Hope everyone else is having a good time back in school adn stuff... :o) ~*XOXO*~ Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 13th, 2006
6:06 pm	New Apartment... New Job... New Life.... Well... things have been going very well for me lately (SHOCK!)... First of all... Ryan and I moved into our own apartment about 3 weeks ago. IT'S GREAT!!! It is so nice to finally have a place of our own to call home. It's nice to live by ourselves too. Living with his parents was nice, but it was starting to get a little old. It's a one bedroom, one bath condo (it's called a condo... but it's more like an apartment complex if that makes any sence) on the second floor. It's small... but it's the right price for us. It's 650 a month, but there is also a 500 dollar deposit... so we are paying that off each month as well, and we are playing the electric bill... so it comes to about 750 total a month (cheap for here). Of course... then we have the internet, tv, phone, groceries... etc. to pay. I think we'll be able to manage it though. :o) I love being able to do whatever I want... whenever I want to do it! Haha Second... I FINALLY got another job! Well... I got two part time jobs! I have Crys to thank! Haha We were talking on the phone Thursday and I was complaining how I haven't heard from any of the thousand places I applied. Well... when we hung up... I got two phone calls for interviews! I went to the interviews Thursday... and ended up getting both jobs! One is at a place called Alternative Homemaking. They hire caregivers to go out to older peoples homes to help them out and keep them company. I will just be working in the office though. Today they told me that they would like me to work in both the Venice and Port Charlotte office. The other job is at a store called Stein Mart. It's a really nice retail store here in Venice. I am not sure if I am going to be working for them or not... but if they are ok with me working one day a week for them as of right now... then I will be. :o) So I will be making some decent money. :o)  Nothing else is really going on... my brother is coming here on Sunday. He'll be here for a week. He is going to stay with Ryan and I Sunday, and then we'll take him up to my Dad's on Monday when we get off work. Is going to fix my computer for me. :o) What a nice big bro... :o) My Daddy will also get a chance to come down here and see our new place. :o) I also get to meet my Step Mom's Mom... Haha It'll be interesting because she doesn't speak any English... and as some of you know things between my Step Mom and I aren't the greatest... so....... yeah.... Anywho... I guess I am gonna go for now... but if any of you (cough CRYS cough... haha) needs our new phone number or address let me know! Oh... my cell phone number is the same.... we just got a lan line so I'd have a Florida number. Buh byes for now! Current Mood: cheerful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 28th, 2006
8:51 am	Moving Day!!! Well today is FINALLY the day that Ryan and I can move into our own place! We were supposed to move in Friday, but when I called our landlord to tell her we were shopping for apartment stuff and couldn't meet with her on time, she told us that something came up and we couldn't move in until today. We have 500 dollars of new stuff for our apartment sitting in the garage... along with all of the furniture my Dad gave us. It would have been so much easier if we could have moved in Friday..... but oh well. Ryan was also supposed to start his job at Comcast today. He never heard back from the lady that hired him when he was supposed to be there this morning, so he just went to work for John as usual. He is going to call Comcast today and find out what the heck is going on with his job there. It'll suck if he can't start his class for another month. We get free cable TV and free internet when he starts working for them, so until then... we'll have to figure something out.  Hopefully I'll get a job soon! I hate not working, and I hate not being able to find a job! I am just going to have to resort to working somewhere I really don't want to work, but I guess that is life. The rest of the week I am probably going to spend unpacking things and getting settled into our new place. :o)  Friday and Saturday I am going to help my step mom clean a ladys house and an office building. It's not the greatest job in the world... but I'll make about 250 in two days working for about 5 hours each day. :o) I can't complain there. Anywho... I guess I should get going. I still have a lot to do before we move out tonight. Laundry, packing, and cleaning. I probably won't be able to get online for awhile... so if you need to talk to me or what not... just give me a call! :o) Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 24th, 2006
1:37 pm	YaY! Ryan and I got approved for the condo! We are meeting up with our landlord tomorrow to sign the lease, and then we can start moving in on Saturday!!! Current Mood: ecstatic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 21st, 2006
8:30 am	We found a place!!! Well after a few days of apartment shopping... Ryan and I finally found a cute little place to rent! It's a one bedroom with one bathroom condo for 650 a month. Not too bad concidering how freaking expensive it is to live here. My parents are going to pay first and last for us, and then my half of the rent until I can get a good job. The lady we're going to be renting the place from also wants a 500 dollar deposit, but she is just going to add 50 dollars a month onto our rent until we pay that off. All we have to pay utility wise is electric. Since Ryan will be working for Comcast... we'll get cable and the internet for free, and the lady we're renting it from takes care of the water, sewer, and garbage. :o) I can't wait! It is going to be soooo nice to finally have my own place with Ryan, and finally have a place of my own to call home. I can't wait to decorate it and just make it all cozy and comfy! If everything goes well... we should be able to move in by Saturday or Sunday. We just have to see how our application process goes. :o) Nothing else too exciting going on... just been packing up stuff and hanging out with friends... so I guess that is all for now!  ~*XOXO*~ Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 19th, 2006
4:29 pm	We're packing up and moving out! Well the newest thing going on since I last updated would be..... Ryan and I are FINALLY moving out of his parents house and getting a place of our own! That is VERY exciting! It is about time that we get our own place and start living a normal happy life together in our place. :o) I can't wait to decorate it the way I (well and Ryan) want it, and well.... just finally a place I can call home. :o) Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 10th, 2006
12:49 pm	It's been awhille... My life hasn't been very exciting lately, so I guess that is why I haven't been writing. Well... that changed a few weeks ago.  I had been trying to find a job for a long time. I finally got one. It was at a vet. clinic working at the front desk filling out charts, checking people/ pets in and out, answering phones, filing, stuff like that. Well I had only been there for 2 1/2 weeks (worked 11 days of those 2 1/2 weeks), and all the sudden I get "let go" Saturday after work. They didn't give me a reason why, so Monday when I had to take Tequila in for her heartworm treatment... I left them a note asking why and for them to call me. Dr. B (the lady I worked for) told me her and Dr. Walsh (the guy that ownes the whole clinic) said I wasn't picking up things fast enough, that my schedule didn't fit theres, and I seemed to be rushing out of work at the end of the day. My first day I got trained by a lady that had been there for 2 days. I had to pick most of the stuff I learned by myself. Dr. Walsh never gave me a schedule, so I made up my own. He said it was fine (I asked for Wed. and Fri. off and I told him I could work every Sat.). We work from 7:30 am until most of the time 6:30 or 7:00 pm. I found out on Monday (and Tuesday when I took our dog in) that Dana leaves at 4:30 everyday and has Saturdays off, and Cindy gets there at 8:30 and leaves right at 5:30 whether there are clients still there or not. When I was in there they both kept asking me questions about how to do things... and I knew the answers! There is something that they aren't telling me, and it's really irritating. I worked really hard for them just to get "let go" a couple weeks later. Oh well... they were interesting people, and some of the things they did there aren't exactly legal. On a different note.... my poor little doggy has heartworms. She went for her treatment Mon. and Tues. She was in horrible condition Mon. when I brought her home. She was drooling a lot, breathing heavily, whimpering and crying... it was sad. Tuesday she did a lot better though. The only crappy part is, is that we have to keep her calm for 6-8 weeks. That isn't easy. Hopefully this will get rid of the heartworms so she will be perfectly healthy. :o) Last night Ryan and I went out with some friends to a club on the Key called Gilligans. Well yesterday our friend Nick, bought a 2006 Jeep Cherokee Laredo. I knew if we went out later that night that someone would have to stay somewhat sober to drive home (Nick and everyone else gets WAAAY too drunk). I didn't drink very much last night. I only had like 2 beers before we left for Gilligans. Well.... Nick gets drunk, John had Jess come pick him up, 3 people stay a little longer, so I am left with Ryan and Nick. Ryan doesn't have a license, Nick is drunk.... so........ I got to be the first person (besides him) to drive his Jeep. Let's just put it this way.... I WANT ONE REALLY BAD!!! It was SOOO nice! I think that is gonna be the next car that I get. :o) It was great! His is fully loaded which I don't really need... but it wouldn't be bad to get one like his either. :o) Haha Ryan bought me a really cute diamond ring for Christmas last year. It had the 3 "stone" setting and what not, but it was a cluster diamond ring. Each little section had clusters of little diamonds in it. Well... between Christmas and before our trip to NY and OR, one little diamond fell out 3 times. They ended up giving me a brand new  one just like it. Well... the brand new one wasn't good either... the same little diamond fell out twice within a week. We went to the mall yesterday to talk to the lady that sold the ring to us. She ended up just letting me pick out a new ring. I got a really simple white gold ring with a little princess cut diamond in the middle. The cool this is, is that it cost more than the ring I had gotten before, but she didn't charge us extra for it. :o) I like this one better though... :o) Well.... nothing else is really going on.... my brother is coming down here for 2 weeks, my step mom's mom is coming here for 3 months... I looking for a job once again.... trying to figure out this whole school thing.... trying to find my own place to live... and so on and so forth.... I hope everyone is have a great summer! :o) Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
11:18 pm	UGH! So I thought I had a game plan when I got back here... but that plan isn't working out so well right now. I just got done looking into going back to school. It's going to cost a buttload of money (well a lot more than I thought it would), and it's going to take A LOT more time than I thought. The course itself is 2638 dollars... there is also a 25 dollar application fee. Well then when you get into reading more about the course... you also have to take: Health Careers (CORE) for 320 dollars, Anatomy and Physiology for 400 dollars, Diseases and Drugs of the System for 400 dollars, and Medical Terminology for 382 dollars. That doesn't include the cost of books either. 1200 hours for the course... that doesn't include all the crap you have to take before! AHHHHHHH! I am gonna go nuts! My Dad said they also have a Dental Hygienist course... but no. So there goes that plan as well. So for right now... my plan is to get a job, and then figure out what the heck I am gonna do about school and getting my own apartment. *SIGH* On the apartment note.... Ryan's mom doesn't want us moving in together. We have  been together for 15 1/2 months now, and we've been living in the same house with his parents for most of the 15 1/2 months. It'd be soooooooo much easier for us to move in together... it'd be cheaper, and we have kinda talked about getting married, so it would be nice to live on our own... by ourselves! Haha I think that it would be really good for us. I talked to my mom about it too... she thinks it'd be a good idea as well, but we just need to convince Ryan's parents (mostly his mom) to let him move in with me. Grrrrr.... Well I am done complaining for now... haha I'll write more later.... Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Friday, June 30th, 2006
7:40 pm	Back in Florida... Well I am back in Florida... Our trip to NY was fun. We were there for about 12 days. It took 24 hours to get there. We stopped more than we did last year because Tequila (our puppy) went with us. She did really well. She slept the whole time except when we stoppped at a rest area or stoppped to get food. We stayed in their old house up there. They are trying to get it ready to sell, so Ryan and I painted the kitchen and their old computer room. His cousin April got married June 17th, so that is the main reason we went up there. He wedding was very nice. The reception was even better. :o) They had kegs of Bud Light and Bud.... good stuff. We drank quite a bit that night. I met Josh's (Ryan's cousin) fiance at April's wedding too. She's very nice. :o) So next year we will be back up in NY for Their wedding. I also met Ryan's best friend Dale and his family this year. Interesting guy.... but nice. Haha ;o)  We left NY on the 20th for OR. It was nice to see my Mommy and my bro. We got into Portland at 11:45ish pm. They lost our bags with our clothes though... We got our bags back late the 21st. They said that they would be at the house before 1. Our bags didn't show up so I called the airline. The lady said that a flight just came in, and our bags should be on this flight. Well I never heard back from them, and I couldn't get through to them again, but when Ryan and I got home from hanging out with Danee... they were there. We had a really good time for the most part. I got to see my Grandma, and my cousins Mike and Gretchen, and their little kid... so that was nice. Everyone else was gone or busy, but atleast I got to see them. It was nice hanging out with friends too. I mostly just hung out with Danee and Crys. Danee recolored my hair. She didn't like the way that my friend Sara had done it, so she made it dark again (for those of you who didn't see me or what not... I had a lot of blonde/ caramel streaks in my hair). It's REALLY dark to me right now, but I haven't seen my hair dark in about 4 years. Haha It's hotter than heck here. I'm totally not used to the weather here anymore. I kinda miss being in the cooler weather, but I still like it here. I miss my Mommy a lot. I didn't spend much time with here cause we were both busy. We did go shopping Tuesday though. That was nice. I got a new pair of Lucky jeans... (but I decided I don't like the way they fit... so I am going to mail them back to my Mommy) 5 new shirts from Old Navy, 2 pairs of flip flops from Old Navy, and a black racerback bra from VS. :o) I also got a few new things while we were in NY. Anywho... I guess that is really all for now... nothing too exciting... just a little update... Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 9th, 2006
1:34 pm	Oh my gosh.... We FINALLY have rain! It's been about 2 months since we've had rain.... it's amazing! LoL I know I'm a dork.... but it's kinda nice to see since it's been so freakin' hot here... Current Mood: good (Comment on this)
Monday, May 8th, 2006
12:34 pm	Summer Plans... Here are my plans for this summer.... Ryan, his dad, and I (and maybe his mom... not sure if she is flying or not yet) are going to be driving up to New York on June 8th or 9th. We will be there until June 20th. Ryan and I will be leaving from Buffalo, NY to come to Portland. We'll arrive in Portland June 20th at 11:25 pm. We will be leaving Portland to come back to Florida June 28th. We leave at 6:10 am. I wanted to leave later... but there wasn't really another flight that left later. So there are my plans for this summer. If you want to get together.... just give me a call! :o) Things here are going pretty well. Ryan's mom left a note abour 2 weeks ago saying that I needed to start paying rent. Well they know that I have been looking for a job, but I haven't had any luck. I took that as kinda sign that they didn't want me here anymore. Ryan talked to his mom about it, and she told him that it's not that they don't like me or don't want me here, it's just that they know I am capable of a lot more than I'm doing now, and they don't like to see me depressed. I'm kinda glad that happened... Ryan's mom and I have been talking a lot more, and things are just getting better around the house. :o) Things with Ryan and I are going pretty well. We had a talk on Friday, and kinda talked about our future. I'm not sure if we are going to get married or anything, but he (and his parents) talks like I am going to be around for awhile. :o) The weather here has been great! It's been in the upper 80s lower 90s for the past 2 weeks or so. It's only gonna be hot... and hotter now. Haha I love Florida though... it's great! I don't really have too much more to say.... Oh yeah... it's my Gradma's 90th birthday today! :o) Hehe Too bad I can't be with her, but she knows I am thinking about her! I guess that is all for now... I'll be home in about a month and a half! YAY! Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 20th, 2006
2:35 am	Friends these days.... It's a lot harder to find friend these days that treat you right... and treat you with respect. Pretty much one of my only chick friends here has been treating me like crap. Her car broke down in Bradenton (about 60 miles away from here), so I went up and sat with her and then took her to her car at the repair shop and what not.... it took half a tank of gas total to help her out. Do I get a thank you? No. Does she offer to help pitch in for gas. Yes. Does she ever give it to me? No. Then her boyfriend John (also Ryan's manager) doesn't have a ride to work. She asks me if I can go get him. I drive 30 miles to Sarasota to get him and then 30 miles back to Venice. Do I get a thank you from them? No. Does she offer to pitch in for gas money? Yes. Do I get it? No. This has been an on going thing for awhile. I don't really care about the money. I just want a simple "Thanks! I appreciate what you did for me." Is that so hard to do? A few weeks ago... John doesn't have a ride, and so Ryan had to open the shop. Jess calls me and asks me if I can give John a ride. I told her that I didn't want to. She then blows up at me and starts cussing me out because I won't do it. I told her that I am sick and tired of her and John taking advantage of me, and her not following her end of the deal. She then blows up at me because of money. I told her that I didn't care about the money... and that I just wanted a simple thank you for all the things I do for her and John. I asked her for money ONCE because I needed gas to get back down to Venice from her house in Sarasota. Things just blew WAY out of proportion. I text her today to tell her happy birthday and apologize for whatever I did. She then goes on and blames me telling me that she did nothing wrong, this is all my fault, that I'm stupid for not knowing why she's mad at me... blah blah blah. So basically... I just finally told her I don't care anymore. Obviously I'm the bigger person for apologizing and admiting that I was wrong. I told her that it's not worth my time to try and fix things if she's going to sit there and blame it all on me and not step up to what she did wrong. It's a lot harder finding friends that you can trust, that appreciate you, that you know would do anything for you because you would do anything for them... and so on. It makes me really miss what friends I do have back home. Ok... enough complaining. Besides that little issue... everything is going alright here. The weather has been GREAT lately... been in the mid 80s... even hitting 90 some days. :oD Been swimming in the pool a lot... working on the tan. Haha Tomorrow is job hunting day. I know I've prolly said that a million times, but I am to the point where I don't really care what I am going to be doing, just as long as I can get a job and feel better about myself. I figure I'll just get like a cashier job somewhere in Venice, save up money for New York and Oregon, and for when Danee comes here, and then I'll be going back to school. Well Maybe not in August, but maybe in like November or whenever they start again (they start all the time throughout the year). I just need to get some money to have to pay my cell phone bill, and to have some extra spending cash for vacation time. :oD So as for right now that is my plan. :oD Hopefully it all works out. Well I hope everyone is doing well.... I'll see some of you guys in a few months! YAY! It'll be a year since I've been home... that is WAAAY to freakin' long! The longest I've EVER been away from home... I miss it! ~*XOXO*~ Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Monday, April 3rd, 2006
1:01 pm	I'M GETTING A PUPPY!!!!!!!!! Hey! So exciting news.... I'M GETTING A PUPPY!!! Ok... well Ryan and I are getting one! I'm so excited! We are going to pick her up tonight when Ryan gets home from work! She is a one year old Chihuahua, and we are going to rename her Tequila and call her Tiki for short! How cute is that!? We thought that would be the perfect name for her. The guy we are buying her from is moving, so we are getting her for 250 bucks! That is hella cheap for a chihuahua! Anwyho... the guy we are getting her from used to bread them, and this is his last one to get rid of before they move. He just sold a male one to another family, and said that they were "humping like crazy" so there is a chance that she might be having puppies in a few months! How cool would that be!? We could make some good money off of them. :o) That and keep one of the puppies. Hmmm.... nothing else too exciting going on. I have been thinking a lot about what I want to do with my life... what will make me happy... and even moving back home. I think I am just going to try to stick things out here, and see how things go. Things between Ryan and I are getting a lot better. I talked to JC (a guy that Ryan works with), and he said that he can just tell that Ryan loves me and cares about because of the way he acts when I'm around. He said that he can just tell that I'm the best thing that has ever happened to him. The guy we are also buying the dog from said that same thing and he doesn't even know us.... so that is kinda reassuring. I think things will be ok. As for right now... my plan is to still try to find a job (the job hunt hasn't been going well...), and then go to NY and OR this summer, then start school in August. There is a school in Sarasota called SCTI, and they have year courses that aren't too expensive. Once I get into school... I'll be able to get my own place, and hopefully Ryan will be joining me. So as of right now... that is my plan. The weather here has been great! It's basically turning into summer here. It's going to be in the upper 70s... to mid/upper 80s from now on during the day, and like 65-70+ at night. :oD I love Florida! I guess that is all for now! ~*XOXO*~ Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 14th, 2006
7:41 pm	YaY!!!! I HAVE A JOB INTERVIEW THURSDAY!!!!!!!!! It's for a medical group in Sarasota. I'd be entering info... making appts... etc. I CAN'T WAIT! WISH ME LUCK! IT'S AT 11 AM FLORIDA TIME THURSDAY THE 16TH!!! Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
2:16 pm	WoW.... it's been a year... Today is mine and Ryan's one year anniversary. To tell you the truth.... I'm really surprised it's lasted as long as it has. We went through a really rough period of time last summer, and actually things haven't been as good as they could be since Friday. I am thankful for him though. If it wasn't for him and his family, I'd be living with my Dad in a really bad situation, or I'd be trying to live by myself in a place where everything is ten times more expensive than Oregon. I just need to try to keep my head up I suppose. Give him one LAST chance and proving to me that what happened isn't happening... and won't happen again. He hasn't done anything to make me not trust him or believe him. I do love him and care about him a lot... he is just going to have to rebuild the trust, and he's going to have A LOT of making up to do. It's just really hard to think positive right now, but with all the stuff I've been trough before... I'm sure I'll be able to manage. I absolutely LOVE Florida! The weather here as been SOOOOO amazing lately! It's been in the upper 70s to upper/ mid 80s! Today is going to be a perfect day to go lay by the pool... have a few drinks... and just try to relax, and clear my head a little bit. Let's see... as for the rest of my life... it's ok. Still jobless because I've still been sick, but hopefully this whole health insurance thing will kick in soon, so I can go see a doctor. I hate sitting around the house all day with nothing better to do than sleep, watch tv, and clean my room. I wish the school I worked at up in Bradenton wasn't stupid and going through so much drama. I made good money there, and I really liked it.... I felt like I was going somewhere with my life. I just need to get back on track... it'd be REALLY good for me. Yesterday, I talked to Crystel. I haven't talked to her in quite awhile. It's always nice talking to her.... she always makes me feel better. :oD She told me that I need to come home for a little while and think about things here. I'd LOVE to come home, but I'm afraid that things will be happening here behind my back. Like I said yesterday... I don't want to really go into detail about what's going on, but all I guess I really can say is... is that it hurts like hell. I'm not sure when I'll be coming home next. It's hard to say. Ryan's cousin April is getting married June 17th in New York... so I am going to that with him and his family. He also just found out Saturday night that his cousin Josh is going to be in Oregon for 6 months for school, so it'd be nice to have someone fly with me back home... I'm not really sure what is going to happen, or when I'll be home, but it'll be soon. In times like these I really miss being with my Mom. She always knows what to say (even if it's not what I want to hear) to make me feel better. I also miss being with my bestest friend in the world when things suck.... it's hard being over 3,000 miles away from people that I care about A LOT and that I know care about me. I guess that's all for now... back to bed for a little while.. and then laying out by the pool drinking some Malibu and Pineapple juice.... YUMMY! :oD Current Mood: blank (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 13th, 2006
5:45 pm	*sigh* So for once I thought that my life was going pretty well (minus the fact that I'm still having stomach problems and still haven't been able to get a job). Friday my life took a turn for the worse. I'm not going to go into detail or anything... but there is a chance that I may not be in Florida for much longer. I'm not sure what is going to happen, but my life could change quite a bit. Current Mood: confused and hurt (Comment on this)
Monday, February 27th, 2006
6:28 pm	My 21er.... Hey! Hope everyone is doing well... :o) So I am FINALLY 21! I went out Wednesday night at midnight and had a drink just because I could. :o) Thursday was pretty nice. Ryan took the day off so we could spend it together. We just hung out and relaxed in the nice weather. His gradma cooked me a wonderful birthday dinner, and then it was off to John's to start some pre drinking. :o) I had about a half bottle of Jager before we left about 2 hours later, and then we hit up a club on Siesta Key. I had a beer when we went in, and then I met a friend of a friends, and she bought me a drink called a mind eraser. I was pretty drunk before that and was going to call it quits, but I now know why they call it a mind eraser! Haha After that Ryan and I went to Dennys for a little late night food. It was fun! I couldn't stop laughing and saying stupid things... so it was a GREAT ending to my 21er! Nothing else too exciting going on here... I am still not working yet. I am getting quotes for health insurance so I can go to a doctor to get some answers about my stomach and migraine problems. I have had this stomach thing since August, and I have also had severe migraines, so I am definitely ready to figure out what the heck is wrong with me, and get back to working. Anywho... that's all for now... I gotta get some things done before I pick Ryan up from work. :o) ~*XOXO*~ Current Mood: cheerful (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 19th, 2006
3:44 am	ALMOST BIRTHDAY TIME!!! :o) Well... nothing to exciting is going on.... MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 4 DAYS!!!!!!! YAY!!!!! I will FINALLY be 21!!! It's about freakin' time... Other than that... the weather is great here. It was cold last week... but it's getting back up into the upper 70s low 80s... I love Florida! Well.... everything else is going well... I am still alive... :o) ~*XOXO*~ Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
Friday, January 20th, 2006
4:31 pm	Bored... I don't really have anything exciting to write about... but I'm bored so what the heck... Nothing too exciting going on here. The weather is still fairly nice. It's gotten cold the past few nights... but it's starting to warm up. :o) I think I am getting my weird stomach thing back. I have had the worst migraines lately too. It really sucks. I can't really go to a doctor right now because I don't have medical insurance, but hopefully I will get a new job that has benefits. :o) I just need to start looking for one! Haha Other than not feeling the greatest lately... nothing else is really going on. I am getting new glasses in a week. :o) Yay! Haha Isn't my life exciting!? Well I guess that is really all for now.. I hope everyone is doing well! ~*XOXO*~ I TURN 21 IN 1 MONTH AND 3 DAYS! YAY! Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)